Life's been normal again, it has its ups and downs, thought the downs seems to be persistent to show themselves more often. Sometimes I really feel like an empty vessel, sitting alone looking at the stars, hoping that someone will be able to enjoy them with me. Honestly, I really hope to find someone that I can share my happiness with, to what little degree the happiness it may be. I don't know, maybe years of being by myself had really made me want to try and experience another side of life.
Been trying very hard to improve my English though I constantly get bombarded by my mom for not being open minded enough. I am trying hard and hope that 1 day she will change that perception of me.
In 2 months, I'll be going of to KL, kind of depressing when I think of it, I will be leaving the comfort of my home. But sometimes, I get excited when I think about going to KL, something new, a new environment, but not a new life, my life baggages will follow me wherever I go, no such thing as a new life, unless I die and get reborn again.
Been having a lot of dreams lately, and they are really sweet and nice dreams, somehow hinting that something good is about to happen soon. I really hope that its true. The continual waiting has been freezing up my heart more and more and I seem to no longer be able to find the strength to go forward anymore, though I know I will go forward anyway. Contradicting aren't I?
Interestingly, I've been meeting different kinds of people lately and sometimes they really open my eyes to a lot of things, about how people can sometimes be so ignorant, while some give me the impression of being very mature.
I know this post is really random, but this blog is a place for me to write everything I want, whatever philosophy I have learnt, for every thought that I have, its all written here. In either good or horrible English, hahaz, you be the judge if you are reading this.
Till next time, tataz.